笨蛋,Baka

你毫不犹豫地带着一个还沉在害怕中的心

you're not hesitate for bringing a heart which is still afraid

你的包容，你的所有

your tolerant towards me,your everything

她收到了

she knew it.

可是却没有办法那个勇气去完全信任

But she don't have the guts to have confident in you

她真的是一个笨蛋

she's really a "baka"

她真的很喜欢很喜欢很喜欢你

She really really really like you

一个星期内，感觉到了你对她说的一切

Within a week, she really felt what you've said to her

也感觉到你的努力  你对她和对别人的差别

and feel your effort, the difference that you treat her and others

她很感动 很开心 很感谢 顿时也很内疚

she's touch  happy  and thankful  but in the mean time, she feel guilty

无论怎样对你不公平都好  你只对我说 

no matter how unfair it was, you'll say.....

"没关系,我会证明一切"

"It's ok, i'll prove everything"

"没关系，我会证明给你看，你是错的"

"It's ok, i'll prove that you're wrong"

你说，我能不哭吗？

What to say?Can i don't cry?

是开心,感动的眼泪  而不是伤心难过的大哭

It's happy,touching tears  and not sad tears

谢谢你的一切  我会很努力很努力地去接受

Thanks for everything from you, i'll try my best to accept

p.s : English is specially for W.M.K @@

♥ ..请别爱上这样的女孩,否则请深爱..♥

请别爱这样的女孩。

她有点懒，她不擅长做家务。

　　她独立，也好强，她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不愿意向别人提起。

　　但其实骨子里，渴望有一个避风港湾，让她去依靠。但她不会承认。

　　她必须确定那个人是否可以承受得了这一切的，承受她的撒娇，她的无理取闹，她的倔强，她的悲观，她所有的性格缺陷且永远不离不弃。
 　　只有这样，她才放心，可以放心去继续做自己，不会害怕有一天将要面对失去。如果没有，那么她只好继续寂寞和孤独。
 
她对爱情没有安全感，也不会给别人安全感。

　　她一定要对方先流露出对她有好感，她才散发她的热情。她爱的永远是对她最好的那个，那个好她心里是有一个标准的，你的积分超过了那条线，她会爱上你，但大多数人没超过线之前就离开了，或者超过了之后没等她看到就离开了。

　　其实她要的并不多，她要的只是一个温暖的家。对她来说太重要了，虽然在她们口中说出来的却是：我不需要爱情。

　　当你紧张他的异性朋友，她会一面跟你说，他只是我的谁谁谁，却一面偷偷在意你的感受。。。

　　对她们而言，唯一具备杀伤力的只有感情，感情如果受到挫折，要么毁了她们，要么成就了她们。从此更加漠然，专注于事业。
 
　　她分手后完全不会像其他座在人面前要死要活，她嬉笑怒闹，变得更加开朗。在听到朋友说有关他的话题时，从不刻意回避，她适当参与，淡然微笑，她的表现总会遭人怀疑这段感情的深浅，而人群中只有那些知道背后情节的人才看见她背后的眼泪和努力。



　　她从来不会在情人面前大声哭泣，除非她真的崩溃了。 

　　即使在你爱着她的时候，她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤。

　　如果你看到她的眼泪，请相信这绝不是她在博取同情，这是她这样一颗内心骄傲的女子不得己的场景。

　　她想对你负责，对她负责，对自己的过去和未来负责，但请你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言。她很难相信。 

即使她很难相信，但她还是会选择等待。

　　她的伤初始浓烈似酒，很快就会变为一杯水，却让水渗入生活成为点点滴滴.她选择在其中淡定，在其中沉默和内伤。

她就是这样，强势，霸道，任性。。。

不会讨人欢心，死要面子，她爱朋友多过你。

她最有保护欲，最没有秘密。

　　最暴躁，最善变，最没耐心，最冲动，最耐不住寂寞却又喜欢假惺惺的让自己一个人呆着。 

　　有时候她又充满阳光的气息，爱笑爱说话，活蹦乱跳，可爱迷人。。

　　她很自私，只愿意与人同甘，不愿意让别人跟她共苦。

　　她的家庭不一定很是富裕，但她都是习惯了养尊处优。

她喜欢热闹，总会成为聚会的焦点，前提是她想。

　　她也享受孤独，会静坐在一个人的房间听着很伤感的音乐。

　　她也会一整天呆在房间里心情压抑低落，但第二天一早起来，又会轻轻松松的打理一切，慌慌忙忙的拽着大衣拎着包往外冲。

　　她习惯在人前表现的很坚强，一付大女子主义的模样。

　　她会想，遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人，她就一定就会很安静，心甘情愿的安静下来，不烦，不闹，按时吃饭按时睡觉，按时做一切能安心和他一起做的事情。

　　她从不轻言爱，她的爱很沉默，那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气，在她的心里有一道栅栏，那就是自尊。

她看得比生命更尊贵的自尊。



　　如果有一个这样的女孩对你说她爱你，那就代表在她的心里你的分量胜过了她的自尊。
 　　你不了解她，不懂她的好，就别爱她。她会在真正爱她的人面前卸掉所有的盔甲和伪装，做个幸福的小女人，她不要求你要做什么，不会无理取闹要你陪着她，她有自己的生活，她给你空间因为她也需要空间。

　　她也会幻想，在遇到真正的他时，会在他累的时候悄悄熬上点营养粥，然后说，看你这么不辞劳累本姑娘心情又不错犒劳犒劳你。

　　她在你面前永远性感调皮，偶尔撒撒娇，跟你玩陌生人的游戏，在你的朋友面前从来大方得体，微笑的依偎在你身边。

　　她不让你给她买这买那，她会说，我啊，是大女人，不喜欢男人给我买单。。。但是心里却会为你私自买给她的礼物而暗自开心，因为女人觉得那是你的宠爱。 

　　她在意的是你的心，你若真心，她必然实意。最起码你得表现的真心，能让她感觉得到。
 　　她会经常冒出些新鲜的想法来调剂生活，她的多变有时会让你不安。 

　　终有一天，她的敏感在你的呵护下慢慢消失不见，她的倔强被你的保护软化，她的伪装在你面前被轻易识穿。。。

得到她，别骄傲，因为没人可以吃定她。

只有懂她的人，才会得到她的好。

　　她有时是有些迟钝的，在感情方面，但有时很敏感，因为她在乎。

　　她有时想，当她遇上生命中的那个人，会爱的多么浓烈，她渴望那种不计后果的极致，然后在强烈的碰撞中享受那种心痛感。



　　所以，别爱这样的女孩，她太偏激，太虚伪，太粗心，又太神经质，太难伺候，太不温柔。。。

如果你没勇气，没能力可以坚持爱她，就别爱她。
 　　因为如果你会离开，她的心将会永远冰封，再也不会为任何人打开。。。。。。

Friendship is equally important to relationship

I knew this will happen

i'm like an alien

just i'm in a relationship

what so surprise and special?

i care what you all did

honestly, friendship is more important than relationship

i know you all just wanted to disturb me

but sorry to tell that, i dislike people disturb me like this

i don't know how to maintain a friendship

i really scare my friendship distance between you all and me will be far apart

yes..he is important

but you all are equally important to me too

why need to treat me like an alien?

like a stranger?

it's last year to being together with you all

after this year, we'll busy with other things

maybe we won't be like this anymore

i just hate and dislike being threaten like this

a person who are in a relationship cannot have friendship too?

if like this, i rather become single back with you all

i know what you all trying to help and do

you all said that me and him very less got time to go out

so need to spent our time in school

but how about you all?

i knew this will happened

because i tried this many times

can't you all just stop it?

it do hurts and making me upset.

and we're a gang of friends
boys and girls
i really do hope our friendship will last long
10 years later, we meet again or every year our reunion day
we'll never change
chat like this,crazy together,having fun together
no matter 18sx topic or whatever

OMO

I knew Vitas's song since few years ago

get attracted by his Opera 2

~Omo Omo Omo~

Vitas-Opera 2

Vitas-Smile

Vitas-Lucia Di Lammermoorr (il dolce suono)

Insult

I dislike you by showing my black face to you..so?

Like i care..I never care about what you insult..

But i care about what you insult towards my friends!!

We failed..So what?We never pass..SO WHAT?!Your business?!

So fun to insult your student huh?What kind of teacher is this..

Here is what she said 

" Man Yee get A1 in her add maths..but Meikay you failed..*i think she mention my name too*..Man Yee you should teach them..use your opportunity to teach them..you all show the dislike face to me when i get in class....etc..*ignored what she saying*"

When she saying this...i totally ignore her

continue my tuition homework

she makes me feel like scolding her

Bitch..we never pass our add maths before

so???it's non of your business

you hurt your student like this?

say their names out when they failed?

do you know they work hard too?

but problem is they really cannot memorize or do add maths

they want to try in SPM

try their best!!

insult and tease people like this very fun huh?

i never respect this kind of teacher

i prefer tuition outside or teach by Man Yee

you think you're pro?

teach integration chapter using almost one month or more 

waste our time

other school already start chapter 5

my tuition teacher use about 3 weeks to teach integration

脚步

曾经因为跌倒而停下脚步

虽然留下了满满的伤痕

可是因为遇见了他

我决定不再停下来   而向前走

不是因为

他和你不一样

我信任他

我信他会对我好

我信他会疼爱我

我信他眼中只有我  心里也只有我

虽然到现在  我还不是完全信任他

可是我感觉告诉我  他是一个这样的人

停下脚步  只是让自己留在阴影里面

或许像他那么说  或许他会给我一个不同的结果

我之所以做出这个决定  因为我觉得你不值得我去停下脚步

曾经的相爱  我会把它当作美好回忆的一部分

也是一个错误的选择

之前你部落格说做回朋友

好吧...朋友....

♥♥♥♥

Actually i really plan to finish up my moral project at home today

but i went out to print something and photostate something

but all shops closed..*pek cek*

then my sister's bf sister's beauty center is having a shooting session

then we just go see people shooting

suddenly my sister said...let's go try

i was like..okok..but you pay for me..*broke*

then my whole precious afternoon time is gone

back home change clothes

while make up

i keep laugh and laugh without reasons

then when drawing eyeliner, my eyes seriously unbalance

one big one small *@@*

i love my make up and my hair (untied)

thanks the make up artiste 

"neo mu neo mu zzang ye yo~~!!!"
my mind pop out something when i'm having photo shooting
"SJ member really born as a artist..."

and the worst part is...i forgot to bring camera to studio

dammit!!!!my sister keep rushing me

what also forgot

then after shooting and dinner

went to my dear house, gave him his breakfast?

then he gave me his drawing

cute!!!!!but complain..i'm long hair not short okay..T___T

thanks thanks thanks~*teehee*

i will remember your awkward reaction

it makes you look funny

you gave me this chance to insult and tease you

*neh ni neh ni bubu*

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photos without editing  p/s : light problem @@

 The make up

me and my sister 

Words

It's quite unbelievable that i text my dad a message today

as my dad is going outstation

message :

"Daddy,take care ya..take care ah ma also..

have a nice and pleasant trip..^^..hehe"

i thought he is going to ignore it

but he reply "TQ" to me

it's like telling me not to worry

because i'm so worry about my 85+ year old grandma who is travelling by plane

i started to worry for whole day until my dad reply my message

this is the first time i text my dad such a message

even my other sisters didn't do it *proud face*

the day before yesterday

my sis bought a pack of biscuit from Isetan that my dad love it last time

we left some for him

watch drama and waiting him to come back

but i feel sleepy and tired

so i text him :

"dad,left some biscuit for you..come back eat..hehe"

then i fall asleep

i wish to see him saying something about the biscuit while he's eating it

really unbelievable i'm doing such things

strange 

but now i recall back

at least they can feel my love toward them by using these ways

i really dislike them to nag me or scold me

sometimes i do feel unfair towards how he treat my elder sis and me
the differences
but anyway, he is my dad, she is my mum
i can understand how their feeling is
they treated me different maybe they want me to study well
i nag i angry i frustrated i pissed off i scold i feel annoyed
but i still feel proud to be their child.

p/s : please don't "WOW" when you human being read this..*shy*

Love ♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I deeply feel your love inside my heart

i'm thanking and appreciating your love towards me

thanks again for covering my good and bad side

i'll try my best to fall in love deeply with you

thanks for loving me

thanks for covering my selfishness

thanks for loving my heart that full of scar

thanks for all your promises towards me

i think you'd like me to thanks god for changing me to this school

and let you to meet me,right?

don't feel bad for not understanding me that well

because i give you time

hmm...you double hearted me

i single hearted you 

i dislike explanation 

the reason please figure it out yourself in positive way

not negative

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

想要倾听心里话

真的很想要听听我心到底想要些什么

因为害怕而逃避

因为事件,我整个心里都混乱了

混乱得我想要什么都不知道了

是因为习惯了存在？

还是早在我不注意的时候住进了我的心里？

还是已经超越了那种关系？

一向来都知道自己想要什么

这次竟然失去方向了

我真的想要好好调理下

可是,还有谁能帮我呢？

我需要分析能力,了解我的人

还是又要告诉我,我有得伤害了？

真的很混乱

朋友已经被我的犹豫不决  感到困扰,烦恼

心,你能告诉我,你想要什么吗？

心,真正的你,躲去了哪里？

时间,我还需要多少时间？

我还需要多少时间才知道我想要怎样？

时间,心  失调了

寻找了4个月  始终都不知道去了哪里

还是再等待再一次的询问再决定？

还是继续这样下去？

一个月前的今天

一个月的今天

是我难以自信的一天

我不敢想象  我已经在马来西亚看见他们

我难以想象我渡过了美好的一天

这一天不只是美好

也很幸福

一个月前的昨天

我已经在机场上见到他们

我冒然喊的一句:"annyeonghaseyo"

引来了他们的注意力并朝向我挥手和微笑

也因为我乱乱跑

他们也向我微笑了

一个月前的今天

真的是一个奇迹

对大马E.L.F的一个奇迹

亲眼看见了美中不足的宝蓝海

看见他们在台上的粉红  看见美中不足的星星

看了美中不足的SJ演唱会

看见他们玩水枪玩到浪漫歌曲,marry u都没认真唱

这一天真的很累很累

过了这一天  第二天世界末日  我也甘愿

除了感谢还是感谢

除了对不起还是对不起

我为你们而不自觉地疯狂了

因为爱你们而爱你们

因为你们而成为E.L.F

因为期待而期待

17.04.2010 ♥

Actually i should be starting my tuition today

but i make it next week

because i wanted go for a movie with christy them

watched Crash of Titans

quite nice actually

graphics and all

then we went in career fair

once i step inside the exhibition hall

i started asking myself 

" why am i here?i'm not graduate from SPM yet..= ="

nevermind..just look around

most of the job vacancy is IT, hotel management,accountant and sales

then i started to worry 

am i choosing the right one?

but what xianxian said that it's lucky that our job cannot be search here

then bought present for someone

i'm broke

finish dinner, went cyber cafe

played left 4 dead, call of duty, CS

i like left 4 dead

although it's disgusting because of zombie

next destination is KFC for supper

then back home

wrap present using newspaper

wrapped for 1 hour

please do feel happy and glad that i'm wrapping present for you 

using 1 hour time & appreciate it...=D

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i'm crazy recently

learning dance by watching youtube video

finally i get to know GG's Oh!

gambateh

*recommend-Wawa school

then i feel like going for a body check up

i wanted for about half year?

because of my stomach

really don't know whats wrong with it

not period impossible is pregnant

*duh..i didn't have sex with anyone..= =ll

maybe just leave it?

don't want waste money and time

关心

不是说我叛逆不听话

可是我还是不明白

关心有很多种

很多不同的

我只是想要学习喝酒,一个人搭车,和朋友去补习,自己去学车

为什么我想要做的事情统统都被禁止？

我只是单纯aura有点不对

你就阻止我了

你是担心回家不知道怎样和你老妈老豆交代？

还是不知道怎样扛我回家？

我今天不醉,我总有一天都会

今天,我是和你们一起

以后,我会跟谁一起？

我只是想要学习

我真的很悲哀

我知道你比我幸福很多倍

因为你所有东西都比我好

所以爸妈都依你的

所以我都依赖着你

连我想要换电话

你说一句好过我一直劝和说一万句

说爸妈没偏心？我一点也不相信

连和朋友出去,都感觉不像和朋友出去了

是连你们都想说她做的对我不对？

我早就知道了

因为我做什么都不对

你们都不会赞同

爸妈让我早回,小心身边人等东西

我都完全能够体谅

可是你不是我爸爸妈妈！

就当作我发酒疯

可是酒后说的话是真是假

相信一些人都应该明白的

快点告诉我说以后不允许我喝酒

以后不带我出去等东西吧

我等着

2012,真的很想世界末日

因为我没有必要再生活在这样的环境下了

或许,末日之后的生活会更好？

我需要关心

可是不是这种关心

Sad story

My expectation towards myself is low

because i'm not confident 

i wish i was like someone

doing things with confident

thats why people always disappoint on me

and i always disappoint my parents

with confidence, i also cannot do things well

i feel like i'm getting worst and worst

studies and piano and ENGLISH

i really don't know what i'm doing recently

just know i'm getting tired and tired

and my memorizing function is getting bad and bad

i totally forget about my piano exam

my teacher just reminded me

i was like..what the hell..how can i forget

maybe i should choose someday in May to stay and practice at home

skip school and force myself sitting in front of piano

grade 8 i must pass 

just a pass   i don't expect myself to get a merit 

but i dream of getting distinction (just a dream)

 i just get distinction once or twice

it's a miracle

but this miracle won't happen now

especially in a lazy person like me

迷路

感觉上又迷路了

或许应该更加珍惜剩下的日子

怎么会在这时候迷路呢？

想要离家出走

可是心却在家里

真的很迷茫

或许太多事情困扰着

才会那么迷茫

我还是需要时间学习看开

太在乎一些事情反而感觉不太好

可是一切随缘会更好

我相信奇迹是自己创造出来

路是自己走出来的

所以我会努力

迷路了

我不会站在那里呆着不动

而会不断撞壁走出来

努力才会有成果

天不会白白给你免费午餐

True or False

True or false is not important anymore

just do what you all like

i just help whatever i can

i dislike to make decision

because i change easily

i learnt a lesson from christy

what she said was right

i shouldn't start a relationship in a gang of friends

a gang of best friends which their friendship can last long

i regret that i did it

i shouldn't

now it's too late to apologize 

i really hope can enjoy on Friday

but due to yesterday's conversation

i've no face to see them

cuz of me,the outsider 

it taught me a lesson

i'll just say no although i've feeling towards him

friendship is always the best

better than relationship

血压

我真的觉得还是不要出声比较好

昨天又是我的错

我骂的有不是他

他要对号入座而已

今天我说不要叫他

又是我的错

我不要出声了！

你们爱怎样就怎样

高血压高血糖什么高的快来了

被气到快呼吸不到

你们爱怎样就怎样

我负责吃和帮手就好了

可爱

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

我开始玩twitter就是因为这人

真的很无言

这家伙每天更新twitter

很像变仙不用睡觉

某s你真的赢了

他肚子饿更新的时候

等待中饿着更新照片

然后你说他吃饱会更新

完全说中

最好就是不要给s说中说你上线上上瘾了

= ='''

第一次  更新我blog是说你  你真的  给我破例了
你twitter说什么泰国的
不要再给我们猜到说你要去泰国
我要翻译啊啊啊啊啊啊
韩文无能
SPM之后补韩文？还是去韩国？还是做工？

Can't wait

i cant wait for Friday's dinner

the day we can sit down and chat and play for whole day

hope we all in a good mood

hope everything goes fine

hope can drink wine

(kekeke..jkjk)

i wish that time flies faster

until that day

long time didn't enjoy myself until the max

recently very dap dap hae

possible that we enjoy until the max?

i miss tomyam jellyfish bihun

miin..come come come...

我爱他

他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐


如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

Girls' Generation(소녀시대)_RunDevilRun(런데빌런)_Story version_MusicVideo(뮤직비디오)

1st post for my new blogger link

the reason why i decided to have a new link

i.) wanted to change it long time ago

ii.) avoid someone from reading it

thanks for siewhong's idea

(SEE! I TYPED YOUR NAME HERE!DON'T SAY I STEAL YOUR IDEA!)

then i post the new music video for you

thanks you (broken english for you.)

lolS?

my fault again

what happened huh?

yes..you are not one of the worm in my stomach

you never know what i'll do next

regarding parents paying for education 

you think i'll say such things to you?

please lah..think properly before you scold me in your blog

what now?blog war?

don't make me change my blog link everyday

that education

since you scolded me for it

i don't think i'll explain to you what happen

just scold as you like

i dislike explanation

but i can tell you that

i won't scold you with that

understand?

if your brain doesn't work

please use your ass and think
terbalik think also know i won't scold you with that
不要没有搞清楚整件事情就乱骂人！！！

我错吗？

Friend?

DAMMIT!

I really feel like scolding those brainless people

are they blind?

don't even know how to read?

i really pity their parents spent so much of money on their education

Rules board not for decoration

dammit!!!I really feel like scolding them

my mood really very very bad

i don't even know how to smile and laugh from my heart

and for someone

please don't disturb me

either you'll get scold from me or cold reaction or response

you know me for so long

you don't even know when my mood is good

10 months

it's like nothing for you and me

you don't even know me well

don't think that simply nudge me in msn everyday

you'll return in my heart

never and never and never

but i'll just black list you

if you feel that black list by me you'll be more happy

just let me know
what a unpleasant day

句号

一巡给了我们希望  失望就接着来了

二巡  不完全抱希望地等待

结果奇迹出现了

二巡  现在也结束了

感觉上  320之后整个人都在晃

蒙蒙胧胧地过日子

3巡  有可能吗？  我可能再和你们站在一起吗？

呼吸一样的空气  为你们欢呼

我并不讨厌句号

因为凡事都会有机会画上句号

四辑  因为没有了韩庚  我一点也不期待

13人  在一起  从天使到E.L.F  才是完美的

或许  完美中的不完美？

KTR 代班--------------->我的最爱♥圭

怀疑...

皮肤敏感了？！

笨蛋

手放开

学会了怎样放开  现在对于任何东西都没感觉

连帮朋友做情人节的问答卷都不知该如何回答

很对不起地把窗给关了

我接受了事实  所以才把手机信息全部给删除了

因为不接受  只会让自己活在痛苦世界里

跌倒了就要学会如何站起来  这个是做人基本的东西

我什么都不会  至少  我还是懂得这道理

接受了事实  更让我讨厌他  更不想要见到他

说做不成情人做朋友   可以  看几时吧

看我几时心情好  再和你说说话

说我太疯狂于不现实世界里   可是现实世界里却给我残酷的事实

信任于情人   原谅我办不到

学着喜欢一个人   却不是学着爱一个人

爱情是美丽的痛苦   这道理我还不能理解

昨天告诉我姐   在世界末日前拍拖吧

学会如何去伤害抛弃人   分分合合   也不过只是这样

何必停留在一段感情中

快点说我变态  白痴  幼稚  恐怖

因为一次的跌倒   我学会了如何保护自己

别人不惹我   我不会讨厌他

就像   别人伤害了我重要朋友   我也会鄙视他   诅咒他

问世间  情为何物

单身永远都是最好的

你做什么  想要和哪个人比较好  想要做什么  想要和谁约会

想要几点睡觉  不睡觉  不读书  旷课

没有人理会   除了关心你的朋友

我说的关心你的朋友   完完全全除了他

只能告诉你  没有你的日子  我过得很好

不要再用担心的语气  问我过得好不好

我一天还在打部落格  就证明我还没有死

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呵护像个孩子

今天我竟然为了几个Pabo去sign up twitter

好吧

我终于发现到我是twitter noob了

我现在开心了

*************************************************

从小到大，我就被呵护得像一个孩子

无论去哪里，都一定有一个信得过的人陪着

就是我姐

开始我会觉得很好   因为我可以和她一起出去

认识她的朋友   和她关系也变好

可是这样持续下去   我就变成一种依赖

去哪里都依赖着她

感觉上我生活上少了她我活不下去了

我想要长大   她也给我长大

可是另外两个人不允许

我现在只是想要和朋友一起搭车去补习

他们就很像怕我会被拐带

我真的不知道几时才能长大

最后一年了，这样也不给我去体验

从小到大去哪里到哪里

补习，出街

凡是是我一个人要去的地方   他们一定载

我说我和朋友要去学车，去nilai

我不用问已经知道不可以了

现在undang改说要21岁才能考

他们说载我去上大学

我真的，不知道这是好还是坏

想要自立，想要学习   一直阻碍我的就是你们

说我活在福中不知福   我很珍惜你们给我的一切

可是你们没有可能这样保护我一世人

如果2012年世界末日   我活了19年，什么意义都没有

我，可以长大吗？

大家都很羡慕我   有人载这里载那里

可是你们并不了解   我更羡慕你们

交通工具   除了轻快铁以外的我都不会   我都不敢

可以让我觉得很开心的   就是认识了"家人"

form 5毕旅   和班上同学聊得很开心

可是心里却很担心  因为这样的呵护

不得不让我去担心每一件事情

我不是有钱人家   我不是身家过百亿的有钱人家

我很感谢这样被呵护  可是保护了17年

是应该开始放手了？

这些话   他们会看见吗？

我   几时才能真正像个大人？

学会保护自己  学会长大

Exam over!!

YES YES YES AND YES!!!

EXAM IS OVER

13 DAYS EXAM IS OVER!!!

Suffered 13 days

exam like SPM *bang wall*

no life

my brain really cacat

memorize things

suppose you memorize all

but i memorize half

memorize hypothesis but forgot conclusion

memorize manipulated,constant..forgot responding

really speechless

but this is just the starting

SPM?i won't let this happen

but...when should i start?

where should i start?

aiya..ignore

finish exam..watch Oh! My Lady

woohooo~!

the whole class shout when passed up the last paper

then another class opposite

looked at us..like animal release from zoo

because we pass up early

the other class look so serious

i'm glad i'm in this class with all those monkeys

虽然

虽然事隔那么久

四年了？

我还是没把你们忘记

只是把你们藏在心里

071124那时至今

我一直想买的东西

都还没能买到

市场上卖RM300

网上某家店卖RM150

我真的很想要收藏

因为那是我和你们的共同回忆

我几时才能买到呢？

看到报章上写你们解散了

可是在我心里，无论你们去到哪里

都是一个很棒很棒的组合

哈韩都是因为你们

你们带我进入韩流世界

认识了"乌龟"
我学韩语，是因为071124那天我留下了遗憾
太多太多事情因你们而起

无论如何，那RM300还是Rm150的东西

我有一天会拿到手！

Say "No"

Another me scolding myself

"Say a big no to yourself

not to sad

because you didn't try your very best

to memorize all those things

what you're doing yesterday afternoon?

you're not studying!!!

you're not memorizing!!!

see..what you're facing today?!

looking at the question paper

you know the answer

but why you're not writing it but leaving it blank?

promised yourself not to do something regret

but you're doing one now

stupid sookshin!!

tomorrow physics again"

tomorrow physics

facing the same problem again

sleep...look...play...talk...sleep

the 4T-Tengok,Tidur,Tunggu,Tiru

无助

快骂我是笨蛋

很多人都为他们做了笨蛋

我是其中一个

看了今天的报纸

我很生气

生气得差点把报纸给撕了

可是我撕了又如何？

我生气又如何？

有人理会吗？

我很笨

我真的很笨

第一次感觉到

保护一个人是那么的辛苦

不是一个人

是13个人

我终于体会到这一天了(笑)

说话

"我不是一个会说话的女孩"

我把这个po在facebook

某朋友说：“难道我听的不是你的声音？不要想那么多”

你听的是我的声音

可是或许你听的不是我当时的想法

因为我是一个严重口是心非的女孩

也因为这个原因

常常警惕自己别那么严重口是心非

认识的朋友多

自然也因为这个原因

失去的朋友也多

常常很羡慕别人

怎么能那么会说话

顿时也在学习

也因为学习

渐渐地把自己给迷失了

多么希望自己还是个孩子

因为孩子永远都得到别人的宽容

可是别人对孩子的宽容

不会长久

因为孩子会长大

长大之后

宽容心就变成责备/讨厌

因为别人都会想，怎么有一个这么没礼貌的女孩

怎么会有一个这样子说话的女孩

可是没有人想到，女孩不会说话

尝试过保持沉默

可是天生就是爱闹

也就是爱闹导致一个一个朋友讨厌她

不会说话的女孩，该怎么办？

02.04.2010 · 03.04.2010

went IOI mall after school on friday

bought exercise book and stationary in Popular

and fake eye lashes glue in Daiso

finally i get to go popular

3 months gone

p/s: Epop & Y.G hidding behind..with the Oh! poster & SJ concert 32pg book

*teehee*

and i wanted to go Popular 3 months ago

anyway..its ok..as long as i get my things

and start my chemist and physic revision on Sunday

--03.04.2010--

wake up at 6 something

back hometown to "ching ming"

i'm crazy because i wear jacket 

and of course sun block

then stay at my uncle house until 8pm 

back KL at 10pm

my dad drive so fast

crazy guy

but god bless we reach home safe

i always believe my dad *hehehe*

感谢

真正体验，经历最多的是你们

我比起你们，只是那1/10

我只是明白了解了这个世界

一切都归属于你们

你们是最棒的

奇迹都是你们带给我们

这段缘分，真的很感谢天

谢谢你们

虽然过了接近两个星期

可是无论再过多久，这份感觉都会在我心中

I want money

I'm very upset

and feel like crying

i wanna buy this

25,000 limited edition

although it's not limited edition

i also want to buy

but my money left RM40

how how how?

where to earn money to buy this?

cost me RM150

i want Boys In City 1 more than 3

because Boys In City 1 they took in Malaysia

really make me upset

because BIC 1 already out of print

in market all is fake that sell RM100++

original one is the best

hide myself at home for one month to save money?

or maybe two months?

really kinda regret for spending all my money

maybe i'll just give up on this

and wait for SuperShow 2 DVD

or other merchandise

sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad 

说好要“貼男人”...

男人们，我对不起你们

我会为了你们努力存钱！